Little Stories 321: Notes on the First Season

I finally went back to the KL Library after months of avoiding the place like a plague. 

I woke up early with the intention of spending the whole day doing a few things:

• Read books
• Borrow more books
• Buy markers for upcoming office workshops
• Buy paints
• Briefing call
• Finish DU assets
• Mockup for Ahimsa

I arrived at the new KLCG, only to realize there wasn’t much I could eat without dairy. So I settled for a plain croissant and a strong oat matcha latte. I spent about 45 minutes reading The Idiot (by Elif Batuman, not Dostoyevsky), then scribbled a few short poems for the illustrations I’ve been working on for IG. I’ve been debating whether to share that poetry side of me I’ve been practicing all year, but eventually decided: fuck it. Life’s too short not to share art with the world. I'm going to ride this creative season that I'm having right now because I was left parched for three years.

Then I headed to the library. I picked up a bunch of books that caught my eye, while my stomach was gurgling, probably from the croissant, and yes, releasing silent farts all along the shelves afterwards (sorry, lactose and I don’t get along). I settled into a solo sofa, spent two hours devouring three short books, took notes on my phone, and rode the caffeine high until it was time to move on before the rain fell.

By the time I walked back to CM, the rain had already started. Thankfully, I’d remembered my umbrella. I browsed the events happening inside and outside, but it was crowded; weekends are not my scene. I used to wander the city on weekdays when it was quieter, almost peaceful.

Still, I had errands. I bought art supplies, grabbed lunch, and squeezed in a 30-minute video call for the yoga event I’d be assisting the next day. I sat in a café holding my phone awkwardly the whole time, silently thanking myself for remembering to pack my earphones. Then I went home with a surprising amount of clarity (*probably from the caffeine). That night, I finished my illustration work for the office, prepared mockups for the yoga center, and went to bed feeling fulfilled because I had actually done everything I’d planned - on a Saturday. 

The night was hard; my upper body was in pain, probably due to drawing (or the Blooms game, take a pick). I was not comfortable and it didn't help that I kept typing and deleting on my phone, praying for some self-control. Eventually, I fell asleep, but I woke up at 3:30 a.m., way too early. 

Since I couldn’t go back to sleep, I pulled out my paints. I spent an hour and a half figuring out how to control acrylic on canvas and managed to create a decent spectrum of green for my living room, the piece I’ve been wanting for months.

By the time I washed my brushes, it was almost 7 a.m., and I had to get ready for the CPR and AED course at my center. Beyond getting certified, I was also asked to share my thoughts about being a student there. I ended up spending half the day at the center, doing everything I needed to do.

That was how my weekend ended. 

By having it all to myself, and thanks to Af for taking care of Sofi while I do the things I needed to do. 

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Random:

• love that Craig is starting on his latest walk: Between Two Mountains. I already subscribed to his pop-up newsletter. This time he will walk around 200km of the old Kiso-ji path for 2 weeks. I think I have a massive crush on him and what he does (walking + writing + taking photos). Like if I could, I would. How cool it is to say that "I'm a writer, photographer, and a walker" :F 
• I finished reading 4 books this week, because right now I'm a woman with a mission. To make it stick longer, I took notes on the books I read, so I could do reflection posts.
• I told everyone that I took life a bit too seriously, and I don't play. There is a love-hate feeling to this statement because I'm way too serious, but I love it.  I’ve always been passionate about life, and I’ve never been able to tone it down.
• Apparently Sofi caught scarlet fever, so she is off-school for another 2 days until she finishes off her antibiotic. I'm in my super-mom mode. 
• This is how I spent the end of my silent week with myself, by writing it down here for strangers to read. I think at the end of the day, I would still like to feel connected, even if with online strangers or just the illusion of readers, that's fine. There’s a small crushing ache in admitting that, but also a strange contentment in accepting that it is there.

Thanks for your time.

Happy Monday.