Little Stories 277 : A Bit Tense, Lately

A Bit Too Tense :

I've been having minor migraine for 5 days. I could even feel the pressure on my jaw. Yesterday I had to try the migraine massage in Putrajaya, just to try something. I know I'm stressed out and overbooked, but I have no option but to go through this until the end of March. This morning I woke up anxious, I couldn't eat and felt nauseous. I tried the acupressure mat and my heart rhythm slowed down a bit. 

I tried the massage, I tried the acupressure mat, I tried drinking warm water (supposedly to hydrate), and I tried breathing practices. But I still can't manage my stress and anxiety. That was why I rejected the job in Nov in the first place because I can't deal with a time-constraint work environment - this first happened while I worked with MM then again with JA. Every time I get too stressed with work, my stress and anxiety will go spiralling. 

So right now, I'm trying to write to clear up my head a bit. 

This evening, I will try running. 

I will try every healthy way to manage it until I can learn to regulate my own emotions because I can't let this cripple my career kan. There must be ways to have fun while over-working kot kan. Kah kah kah. 

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One Day:

 

I knew I wrote it sometime back, ten years ago to be exact. 

It's One Day - on Netflix. I loved it when I first read the book, and I kinda loved it when I watched the movie adaptation. This time, it is a 14-short episode on Netflix. I thought it would be fun to watch it while working, so I did. Just finished it.

Did not make me cry this time - thought it would give me a good cry but it didn't. Maybe the reason was because : 1) I watched it while designing UI and 2) Both characters were not lovable - Emma in the movie was quirky, but in the series, she seems a bit snobbish. Dexter in both the movie and the series were annoying, so I'm not attached to either of them. 

It's about friendship and love. Yes, same as what I wrote before, if it is meant to be, there's no point in running. Maktub. But for them to be together, both of them need to fall, grow, learn, and heal in their own ways. 

People who never read/watched the movie might be surprised by the ending. 

So, perhaps, get ready for a tissue?

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Random things on books (from draft post):

 

On Buying Preloved Books:

I bought 2 preloved books on Carousell:

• 10 minutes 38 seconds in This Strange World by Elif Shafak
• The Days of Abandonment by Elena Ferrante

I was really hoping that I wouldn't have to buy any books that I might not like - I prefer borrowing, but the options are so limited. So I had to swim through the list of books that people want to sell as preloved and I had to buy them. But I think I can resell them back later if I don't like them. 

Reading in January:

After such a successful reading year in 2023, I decided to have a slow reading year in 2024. Since Jan, I only read 2 books:  Rosshalde by Hermann Hesse + The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood. 

“But who can remember pain, once it’s over? All that remains of it is a shadow, not in the mind even, in the flesh. Pain marks you, but too deep to see. Out of sight, out of mind.”

I'm currently reading Anxious People by Fredrick Backman, it is such a boring book =.= So I stopped. Then I didn't have any time to read anymore. 

On Reading More HH's :

I read another one of HH's underwhelming book written in 1914 - didn't like it and it took forever to finish it up even though it was not that long.

Herman Hesse's Books : 

•  1904 - Peter Camenzind 
•  1906 - Beneath the Wheel ✓ 
•  1910 - Gertrude 
•  1914 - Rosshalde ✓
•  1915 - Knulp ✓ 
•  1919 - Demian ✓ 
•  1922 - Siddhartha ✓ 
•  1927 - Steppenwolf ✓ 
•  1930 - Narcissus and Goldmund ✓ 
• 1932 - Journey to the East ✓ 
•  1943 - The Glass Bead Game

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Note: I have been drafting unfinished posts since Jan, so I decided to post them all here - unpolished. So later if I read back, I can 'feel' the phases that I went through and see how it got reflected in my writings. 

=.=

Dah la, tonight I wanna go cry in my sleep (tapi tak sempat sbb tertidur terus). Zz.