Books:
Remember when I said I'd probably DNF some of these books? Well, because I apparently don’t even listen to my own advice, I told myself to sit with the boredom and endure the journey. I finished Must I Go (Yiyun Li) and The Idiot (Elif Batuman), probably after a year of slow reading. I’ve currently reached 27 books this year. Several others are still in progress, scattered around the house and across my Kindle like little unfinished lives.
The books I finished since the last March:
- Here After by Amy Lin
- The Great Mental Models , V2
- The City and Its Uncertain Walls by Haruki Murakami
- Conversations with Friends by Sally Rooney (*reread)
- The Idiots by Elif Batuman
- Strangers by Belle Burden
- I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokpokki by Baek Se-hee
- Must I Go by Yiyun Li
- Ghost by Raina Telgemeier (novel graphic)
- Dept of Speculation by Jenny Offil
Sofi and I went back to my mom’s the weekend before Eid, and we had a good time together. Or at least, a version of a good time, if we pretend everything was rainbows and butterflies.
She wasn’t with me during Eid this year, and somewhere in the deepest corner of my heart, I was mopey and missed her terribly. But I promised myself I’d try not to become the party pooper this week. It wasn’t easy. I didn’t have Af to calm my triggered soul, or Sofi to distract me from what is usually one of the harder times for me. So I licked my wounds and sighed into the exhaustion.
Ma asked whether I'm going to cry myself out when I get back.
Of course, who wouldn't?
We own nothing, bb.
My pov has shifted since January. Somewhere along the way, I received clarity in a box. Answers to questions that had quietly accumulated over the years. The kind I once begged for. It took me a while to process everything. Perhaps I am still processing it. I told my sister, "this is me verbally processing the information", to that she answered, "I know".
But I think I’m getting there.
There is a full stop at the edge of the line.
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