My dream

Last night, I dreamt the whole town turned into vampires. A lot of them.
They were monstrous, evil, with red eyes, and they ran so fast. Yes, they ran, not flew.
And they were so strong.

We were terrified because one by one, the whole town was turning into vampires.
We were the only humans left, so they tracked us down.
But we ran, my whole family, using a caravan.
How weird is that?

Using this old caravan, we stopped at a great wooden gate leading to another old city.
The guard let us in. He stayed in an old wooden guardhouse, hidden from the light.
And I saw those evil red eyes from the guard.
He was a vampire too!

We walked along the road, under the sun. All the houses were creepily quiet.
From the windows, we could see eyes, watching us hungrily.

And then I woke up!!!
It was creepy. I can remember the part where the guard watched us hungrily very clearly!!

Who am I kidding.

Latest book.

Okay. Don’t wanna talk about programming. I’ve been obsessing over it.

Ahaha... so, the latest book I’ve read is Massive by Julia Bell.
The cover of the book caught my attention, so I bought it for Azura, my younger sister.
It’s a simple book, I only took one day to finish reading it.

The story was a bit disturbing. It’s about someone with bulimia who’s obsessed with her weight,
because her mother is obsessed with their weight too.
Okay, the real problem was the mother. In the end, she almost died from dieting,
and was taken to a mental hospital.

I’d give it 1.5/5 stars because it’s too... simple. =p

Feel bad.

You know what makes me feel bad?
Low self-esteem.

When my two geniuses divide their jobs for the PHP programming work,
and I’m just decorating with simple HTML, CSS, and JavaScript.

I’m not taking things for granted.
I’m having a hard time trying to learn all this.
I AM!!

Every day, I do the exercises, I build my own database and stuff...
But I’m too slow compared to them.
And my heart is really aching because the tension is building up.
That feeling, trying too hard to work harder and harder...
The mix of shame and rendah diri... aii...

I’m trying.
I know I am...

Finale. finale.

Final exam is coming...
Assignments and project deadlines...

The project I’m having a hard time catching up with (considering it’s PHP and MySQL).
Islamic Malaysian Studies book to read... and all the related newspaper issues...
C Programming, with so many exercises to re-do...
Web Programming, with the BIG PHP and all those boring codes.

ITheory... ahah~! This one, I got 31/50 for my carry mark.
Consequence of fooling around before midterm. Padan muka.

No more kayaking. Finished the syllabus.
I’m bored of being exhausted.

My mind says I should do this and that...
But my body says I need rest.